The Myths of Motherhood Part II
This blog post is a deeper dive into a previous blog post I wrote about the myths of motherhood, and can also be found on Postpartum Support International’s Website.
As a perinatal and maternal mental health therapist, and mother myself, I have witnessed and experienced the subtle and overt beliefs our society holds about motherhood and women. Motherhood is a social construct, certainly steeped in patriarchy, sexism and misogyny. I see the impact of the resulting pressures on mothers, though also get to see the transformation once a mom releases the “pressure valve” and allows themselves to narrate their own experience of motherhood. These myths persist throughout the years of motherhood, and many mothers find themselves still struggling with “how to be a good mom” years into motherhood. Spoiler alert: the formula for “how to be a good mom” is based on these myths. Below I’ve detailed the most often-heard myths from mothers in my therapy office, as well as some ways to de-construct each myth.
“Motherhood should come naturally.”
There are a lot of influences that make someone believe that the moment they become a mother, it should “feel natural”. Though this may be some people’s experience, it is not true for everyone. It can be helpful to remember that the relationship with a child is a new relationship, and we can’t expect to know this little person the moment they enter the world. If someone is a first-time mom, it is a new job and in turn means there is a lot of learning to do. Moms don’t often give themselves enough room to learn and make mistakes. It is important to trust one’s instinct they will “figure it out," rather than believe the myth that one’s “maternal instinct” will know exactly what to do.
“I should be able to do it by myself.”
Perhaps this myth is an off-shoot of “it should come naturally"-if someone expects they should know what to do, then they shouldn’t need help. Being a mother and parent is often the job that we value the most, so this too increases the desire to be a “top performer” when it comes to the job as mother. There is high importance placed on individualism and perfectionism in our country, which permeates parenting trends and strategies. It is also important to acknowledge that mothers are often held to higher standards than fathers, which perpetuates the belief “mom knows best” or is ultimately the one responsible for all things child and household-related. This under-estimates fathers and their confidence, contributes to uneven distribution of labor in the home, and creates relationship dissatisfaction. Moms can also struggle with allowing others to help because they have a vision of how things should happen or be done; some mothers can even thwart others’ attempts to help. There is a strong identity rooted in “doing everything” as a mother in order to be a “good mother”. It takes acknowledging our own needs are still important, and there is no way to meet them consistently if we don’t ask for help and partnership in parenting.
“I should enjoy all parts of motherhood.”
When the topic of “mom guilt” comes up in my therapy office, it is often rooted in the above-mentioned myth. Mothers will describe feeling guilty they want their children to be out of the house, or dread playing with them at times-when we “dig deeper," we find a belief/myth that not enjoying parts of motherhood MEANS we don’t love our kids or are not “grateful” enough about having them. It is an idealized notion we will enjoy every aspect of motherhood, and “mom guilt” drives us to say “but they are so worth it!” when we might acknowledge dislike, dread or disdain for certain aspects of motherhood. We tend to equate how much we enjoy motherhood to how much we love our kids-Let’s agree these are two separate things. Others can meet our kids’ needs too.
“I need to sacrifice my own needs for my children.”
When I talk about sacrifice in motherhood with my clients, I am specifically speaking to consistent, complete, or utter self-sacrifice, which creates negative consequences for that mom. Basic needs go unmet, she has little to no time thinking about herself or being alone, and holds a belief that being self-sacrificing is the epitome of being a “good mom”. Mothers are held to a higher standard than fathers in order to be labeled a “good mom”-though we may have an idea of what makes a “good dad," these standards are not as rigorous or the same as the standards for mothers in our society. “Mom guilt” enters the picture here as well, which then drives more self-sacrificing. Is it challenging to care for ourselves as mothers when the demands are unrelenting during parenting? Yes, there is no doubt about that. However, lowering our standards, challenging perfectionism in parenting, expecting partnership from our significant other rather than “help” can all move the needle to “good enough” for our kids and thus leave more space for mothers to meet their own needs more often.
The above myths are only a few of the countless that persist in our culture, and I am certainly not the first to discuss this topic. Whether you are a mother reading this, or a professional that supports mothers, it is vital to assess yourself or your clients within the current societal construct of motherhood. Mothers deserve better preparation, support and societal change in order to navigate motherhood.
Resources related to myths of motherhood and mental health:
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9765384/
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/23007052/
https://www.nytimes.com/2022/08/26/opinion/sunday/maternal-instinct-myth.html
Protecting Your Mental Health During the Holidays
As I reflect on my own parenthood experience and what I hear from other mothers in therapy sessions, there are a few things I hear again and again during this time of year. Despite the joy and expectations of happiness for this time of year, many are struggling with their emotional and mental health. Here are a few ideas of how to cope and protect your mental health during this time of year.
#1 Think about your boundaries ahead of time, and allow yourself to change them as needed. This may look like accepting invitations to certain family gathering or other events after you have assessed WHY you want to participate. Too often we say “yes” out of habit or obligation, rather than allowing ourselves to really assess the “cost-benefit” to certain activities. Additionally, if you get to the day of plans and you need to change your plans, you can. It can be stressful to know others want to see you and your kids, and that they may feel disappointed with any changes. But remember to re-frame these situations- telling yourself “I understand they may be disappointed” rather than “I caused their disappointment”. If we continually prioritize others’ feelings above our own, we will likely become resentful and burnt out.
#2 Try to keep consistent with the things you do the rest of the year to maintain your emotional and mental health. Given how busy things can be and the one-a-year events happening, we might forgo our exercise, time with friends, sleep habits and relaxation time for ourselves. Try to find ways to keep those foundational coping skills in place, and allow yourself to modify-maybe you can only make it to the gym twice instead of your typical four times, and that is okay.
#3 Consider additional help or even therapy if you find yourself unable to cope effectively, or are experiencing anxiety or depressive symptoms (these may be increased during this time of year). This can mean asking your support system to help you with the holiday “magic-making” (or talking with your partner about dividing the work more equitably), doing less, and really thinking about whether some of your emotional struggles exist outside of this time of year as well. We often convince ourselves that our distress is only due to circumstances, rather than seeing we might have maladaptive coping tools or lack tools all together.
It’s often the simplest of things that bring joy and warm memories for us and our kids during this time of year-so it’s okay to slow down or stay home.
Maintaining Relationship Satisfaction As You Transition Into Parenthood-Joshua Kellar, LMFT, LPC
The journey into parenthood is a remarkable and transformative experience, one that brings joy, challenges, and a newfound depth of love. Yet, amidst the excitement of welcoming a new life, couples often find themselves facing unexpected obstacles in their relationship. Many couples share the sentiment that their partner doesn't truly understand them anymore, as the dynamics shift and new roles emerge. Navigating this intricate terrain requires intention, effort, and a deep commitment to each other. In this exploration, we delve into the principles that can help you maintain relationship satisfaction as you transition into parenthood, drawing from the wisdom of John Gottman's insights in "7 Principles for Making Marriage Work."
Many couples express dissatisfaction in the relationship claiming they do not feel like their partner even knows them anymore. As you transition into becoming a parent there’s a world of thoughts and feelings that are all brand new. Without intentionally choosing to explore these with each other, you could begin to feel as though your partner doesn’t know who you are. Choosing to learn about each other builds what we call “love maps.” Love maps are the layout of your world and just as you learn your way around town using a map (or GPS) building love maps is how you become familiar with your partner’s changing world as you continue to learn what it means to be a parent.
Additionally, paying attention to each other’s needs is vital for maintaining relationship strength and friendship. Being a new parent is difficult for both partners but in different ways. Often the non-birthing parent can feel like they do not have a right to have needs and so they withhold sharing and not needs go unexpressed. This can lead to resentment and loneliness. When we turn towards each other’s needs, we communicate that we are available and that we can be trusted. As you pay attention to how your partner might need help, they know you are committed and will be open to influence as well.
Conflict is not only inevitable, it’s crucial for maintaining relationship intimacy. Couples I work with often raise an eyebrow when I say they cannot have intimacy without conflict. Most of them fight tooth and nail to avoid conflict. This is because the type of conflict most couples have ends in distance and withdrawal. As you transition toward parenthood the changes you will experience require both of you to adapt. Choosing how to engage in healthy conflict is how you will successfully navigate through this and at the same time create more closeness between you.
First, you have to shift focus from your partner and talk more about yourself. Yes, talking more about yourself involves sharing your feelings and needs using “I” statements. Instead of, “You’re changing the diaper wrong,” using an I-statement you’d say, “I’m nervous that everything won't be contained that way, could you be sure to do it like this?” I-statements will lead toward less defensiveness and allow your partner to understand you better without feeling criticized.
Second, listen to your partner with interest and curiosity. It can be incredibly difficult to suspend judgment to hear out the other person but when you do, you’ll be able to catch the gems that are hidden beneath the surface. Having curiosity means asking deepening questions like, “Oh yeah? Can you tell me more about that?” and “What did you mean when you said… I’d like to understand that better.” Or “Is there anything else I should know about how you feel about this?” Choosing curiosity will help your partner feel that you are not stuck in your perspective and that their dreams and desires matter.
Finally, know when to take a break if you’re feeling overwhelmed. Even the healthiest individuals can get flooded. This is when the emotions grow to an overwhelming point and it becomes difficult to continue thinking straight. In conflict, it means you’re either shutting down or have escalated toward raging. No logical thinking or reasoning is happening when you’re flooded. Agreeing with each other that when this happens you will take a short break and try to return when you’re both calm is the best way to try and finish the conversation.
Additionally, maintaining relationship health as you become parents involves creating shared meaning and rituals of connection. Shared meaning happens when, together, you know something special is occurring between you. We create shared meaning in several different ways. Symbols, for example, capture the essence of something we value with a simple word or picture. We also create shared meaning with roles. As you arrive at “who does what” in your relationship, you will come to appreciate the ways each of you contributes. Goals create shared meaning by allowing the two of you to vision a future for your growing family.
Rituals also create a strong connection and shared meaning. Not long ago I was working with a couple that was struggling to feel like they were on the parenting journey together. What I discovered was that they had divided up the roles so clearly that there was very little they were doing together! I encouraged them to identify certain points throughout the day where they could focus on the parenting responsibilities together. They decided that together they would bathe their baby and that when he arrived home from work each day, they would both get on the ground and play with their baby on the play mat.
As you embark on the incredible journey of parenthood, remember that nurturing your relationship remains an essential foundation for the well-being of your family. By building love maps through continued learning about each other, paying attention to each other's needs, and navigating conflicts constructively, you lay the groundwork for enduring connection. Shared meaning and rituals of connection breathe life into your relationship, allowing you to share in the beautiful and challenging moments that come with parenting.
Amid sleepless nights and diaper changes, don't lose sight of the love story that brought you together. Embrace the changes as opportunities for growth, both individually and as a couple. As you become parents, you're not just adding to your family; you're strengthening the foundation of your partnership. By embodying these principles, you can create a relationship that flourishes amidst the trials and triumphs of parenthood. Your journey together, marked by understanding, support, and shared meaning, will not only enrich your lives but also provide a resilient and loving environment for your growing family.
Josh Kellar is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist and Licensed Professional Counselor who treats couples in his central Texas private practice. He believes that within every couple is the capacity to grow through conflict, discover dreams for the future and maintain the spark that creates passion and excitement. Learn more at www.joshkellarcounseling.com
Grief and Loss in Parenthood
I distinctly remember sitting in my new mom’s group after the birth of my first child, and the group leader talking about how it is normal to miss your life pre-kids. Until that moment, I had not realized that grief was an ever-present feeling I was having-it then hit like a ton of bricks after I had a label for that feeling.
Themes of grief and loss permeate the parenthood journey, often in many unexpected ways. Let’s start with the conception phase-if pregnancy is intended, one loss is the spontaneity of sex. This is especially true as the trying-to-conceive journey goes on and on-we become very focused on timing and “perfect” conditions as stress increases about being able to get pregnant.
More obvious grief and loss is pregnancy loss/miscarriage, as well as other types of ambiguous loss (loss that won’t provide emotional closure or clear understanding). For example, infertility treatments mean the loss of your body being “normal” or “working right”. There is also the loss of sex with your partner resulting in a child and instead a medical procedure “creating” your child.
Let’s go back to my example at the start of this blog, which relates to loss in the postpartum period. Many people feel sadness and grief over the loss of freedom they had pre-kids. You can feel this while also feeling joy and excitement about your new phase of life. We might feel “trapped” by our baby’s naps or feeding schedule, and often don’t have enough energy to participate in the activities that make us feel like ourselves. The good news is that this reality adjusts as your baby grows, and if we make a plan for re-integrating some freedoms into our lives.
Many moms also grieve how different their bodies may appear to them, given the amount of pressure in our society to NOT look like you had a baby and deeply rooted “fat phobia” that exists everywhere. These difficult feelings may come up in their relationship with their partner, as partner’s body hasn’t been changed by pregnancy. There may also be worry their partner is not attracted to them any longer. Grief and loss can also show up as your relationship with your partner has changed since baby arrived. Focus has shifted from the relationship and your partner to baby, which can feel all-consuming at times. There is also more conflict as you both navigate how to co-parent and define your roles within your new family. Your previous, less stressful relationship with your partner can feel like a loss.
This is by no means a complete list of the losses associated with parenthood. It’s my hope that this blog doesn’t leave you feeling pessimistic about parenthood or the difficulties of the experience, but rather validates feelings that you haven’t talked about or feel you can’t talk about without judgment. There is room for all feelings about parenthood, even ones that seem contradictory to each other.
My First Podcast Interview!
I recently talked with Brett Nikula of Pivotal Approach Therapy, on his podcast “Fighting for Connection”. We had a great chat about my practice and a few different topics related to motherhood. If you’ve been considering working with me, listening may give you some idea of my personality and “style”-if you are just looking for information about the transition to motherhood and why we need to support moms, I speak to that as well! Have a listen here!
Mom Rage
What Causes “Mom Rage”?
We’ve all heard this term before, and there are likely thousands of memes and GIFs we could find online that give a good laugh about moms losing their sh*t. Humor can help deflate anger and rage as well-though feeling true rage or intense anger as a mom is a very “loaded” experience. We can feel deep shame about the intensity of our feelings, and that they are in stark contrast to being a calm, loving and nurturing mom.
There can be a variety of reasons why some of us struggle with rage at times; it is sometimes a sign of more serious mood disorders like Bipolar Disorder or depression, though certainly not always. Sleep deprivation and being over-stimulated are more likely contributors, as well as feelings of resentment. All three of these factors shorten our “emotional fuse” and unfortunately are all part of parenthood. Hope is not lost though! There are ways to cope with these challenges, as well as reduce the shame associated with intense feelings and anger/rage in motherhood.
Sleep is FOUNDATIONAL to stable mental health. It is challenging to get great sleep as a parent, often for many years. However, anything we can do to lengthen stretches of sleep is beneficial-so as your newborn consolidates more hours of sleep as they get older, things will improve. Both you and your partner waking and sharing the feeding tasks can shorten how long both of you are awake, or switching off with you partner in tending to night wakings for your baby or toddler can help.
Over-stimulation is another factor that can decrease our tolerance for stressors, and is often unnoticed until we “explode”. TV on at full volume, noisy children’s toys, baby crying, being asked for help multiple times within minutes, feeling “touched-out”…..our brains can be overloaded with too much sensory stimulation at once. This might manifest in a panicked attempt to stop the stimulation-i.e. “STOP IT!!” “SHUT UP!” “ENOUGH!”. Maybe you’ve said or done “worse” things than this-shame will then compound how we are feeling and may lead to self-critical thoughts like “I’m a bad mom” or “I’ve damaged my kids forever!”. Neither of these things are true-you deserve self-compassion for making mistakes, and you can always repair with your child. Certainly, if you are struggling often with these kinds of feelings, or are concerned you would hurt yourself or someone else in your rage, you should seek help and support from a professional.
Lastly, feelings of resentment, whether they are directed at your partner, your kids or the general experience of parenthood, can linger under the surface and then reveal themselves all at once in a “rage”. It is so important to express when you need more help, or delegate daily tasks, and utilize your support system to regularly offload your feelings.
A “Case Example”
Maybe you’re debating whether you have a “real” problem, or really need therapy. Maybe you’re feeling scared of the therapy process, especially if you haven’t done it before. Below is what we call a “case example” in the therapy-so basically I’m going to tell you a story about a mom that might help illustrate what therapy is like and how it’s helpful.
Natasha comes to therapy when she is 8 months postpartum. She talks about feeling more down and sad since stopping breastfeeding, and struggling with a lot of negative self-talk. As we explore more of her history, we learn that she has had depression in the past, and considers herself a “worrier”. She also notes that her mood changes started months ago, but she kept trying to “push-through” to see if things would get better. She also has a toddler, and is overwhelmed with parenting two kids. Natasha also notices she jumps to conclusions about others being upset or disappointed in her; for example, she worries her husband is mad at her when she takes time to herself, or that he thinks she is a “bad mom”. She too thinks she is a “bad mom” and this is why she is finding motherhood so hard.
Once Natasha decided to start therapy, we first talk about how stopping breastfeeding can impact mood, as your hormones change when you stop. Some women are more sensitive to this than others, but it can trigger depression. We also talked about how she likely developed postpartum depression rather early in her postpartum period, and like many women, didn’t talk with anyone about her feelings. Depression can change how we think; thus she is having more negative thoughts about herself and a lot of feelings of shame. We also talk about how some of her beliefs about motherhood may be unrealistic and her expectations of herself are unfair. Once she has a better understanding of what she is going through, we move to talking about coping skills and practical strategies to improve her situation.
For Natasha, this meant getting back to regular exercise, increasing her antidepressant dose, and working on her perfectionism. Perfectionism is based on a core belief in yourself that you are not “good enough” and need to “prove yourself” to be worthy. We also talked strategies to communicate more assertively with her husband, and make more time for their relationship. Some sessions Natasha would say she was feeling better, but other sessions she would talk about how hard things had been the past week. We would talk about how common this experience is in therapy-progress is not linear, but we want to be “trending” in the right direction overall. This was true for Natasha, as 3-4 months in she was scoring lower on the depression inventory. Natasha felt improved in about six months, though wanted to continue therapy to work on other relationship issues.
Therapy can be hard and challenging, but worth your investment in it and yourself. If you’re debating therapy, it’s likely a sign you need more support. Like anything new, once you get going you feel less scared and more confident. Schedule your consultation today!
Is What I’m Feeling Normal?
What’s “normal”?
Have you asked yourself this question since having a baby? I know I did after having my first child, and I have heard it asked many times in my office as a therapist supporting new moms. It can be really hard to know if what you are experiencing is “normal”, especially if you had certain expectations of how your journey into motherhood would go. And let’s not forget the multitude of societal messages and expectations that contribute to creating these expectations for ourselves.
So, let’s first start with allowing any and all feelings you might be having-feelings are separate from how much we love our children or how “good” of a mother we are. Let’s also normalize the following feelings-sadness, grief, loss, anger, rage, overwhelm. Maybe you’re also feeling happy, elated, or over-joyed at times. Worry is also a common emotion in new motherhood, as it’s a new job and most of us want to do it really well.
We can start to separate what is “typical’ from what might be concerning about your experience. One question to ask yourself is “how am I functioning in each of my roles?”. If your mood or emotions are affecting HOW you are doing in your roles or jobs, then we should take a closer look at what is happening. For example, if you are worrying so much about your baby you are not sleeping, you might be having anxiety that is beyond typical worry. If you’ve gone back to work after having your baby and are unable to consistently focus on your job or perform to expectations because of your mood or worry, we should consider if you are having true anxiety or depressive symptoms.
Below are a few red flags to pay attention to if you are wondering if what you are feeling is “normal”.
You are more than two weeks postpartum and are easily tearful and feeling down multiple days a week
You have little energy or motivation
You are struggling with sleeping beyond the challenges of having a newborn-difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep
Noticing frequent self-critical thoughts or feeling “bad” about yourself
Constant worrying, overly-concerned with “something bad happening”
Racing thoughts
Trouble sitting still or relaxing
This is by no means a complete list of the symptoms of postpartum depression or anxiety, AND you do not have to check off any of those to validate needing support or help. Check out Postpartum Support Minnesota’s website for more information on Perinatal Mood Disorders https://ppsupportmn.org/what-are-pmads/.
Five Local Resources for Moms
Local Resources for Moms
One of the things I focus on with moms in therapy is building and then regularly using their support system. What keeps moms from using their supports? I’ve heard moms say they worry about burdening others, or believe they “should” be able to do it on their own. These self-sabotaging beliefs are something we can dig into with therapy, but below are five local resources for moms that can help cushion the adjustment to motherhood and provide general support as well.
Amma Parenting Center
Offering birth classes and mom groups
Blooma
Offering prenatal yoga classes, childbirth education, doula and lactation support
ECFE classes
https://education.mn.gov/MDE/fam/elsprog/ECFE/
Parenting education offered through public school districts
Postpartum Support Minnesota (PPSM)
https://ppsupportmn.org/help-for-parents/
Online support groups and peer support
MOMS Clubs
https://momsclub.org/chapters/chapter-links
Connection with other moms in your community for friendship, support, events and local babysitting co-ops
Common Myths of Motherhood
Myths of Motherhood
“It should come naturally.”
There are a lot of influences that make us believe that the moment we become a mother, it should feel “natural”. Though this may be some people’s experience, it is not true for everyone. It can be helpful to remember that your relationship with your child is a new relationship, and we can’t expect we know this little person the moment they enter the world. It we are a first-time mom, it is a new job and in turn means we have a lot of learning to do. Moms don’t often give themselves enough room to learn and make mistakes. It is important to trust that you have an instinct as a mom, and we can hold both trust in ourselves to “figure it out” and also embrace it is a learning process.
“I should be able to do it by myself.”
Perhaps this myth is an off-shoot of “it should come naturally”- if we expect we know what to do, then we don’t need help. Being a mother and parent is the job we value the most, so this too increases our desire to be “top performers” when it comes to our job as mom. There is importance placed on individualism and perfectionism in many parenting schools-of-thought, which also contributes to this myth. Moms can also struggle with allowing others to help because we have a vision of how things should happen or be done; we can even thwart others’ attempts to help. It takes acknowledging our own needs are still important, and there is no way to meet them consistently if we don’t ask for help in parenting.
“I’m a bad mom.”
I’d dare say that EVERY mom has this thought at least once, if not multiple times in the course of raising kids. We seem to have a knack for blaming ourselves if our child is distressed or having a hard time, or we perceive some sort of “failure” on our part. I am a strong believer that EVERY mom is doing the best she can, even when she or others perceive some sort of inadequacy on her part. The belief “I’m a bad mom” is also rooted in unrealistically high expectations we place on moms. When we allow we are human and imperfect, and our kids are their own little people, we can instead focus on how we show up for our kids. There is always a chance for making a repair when an emotional injury occurs in our relationship with our child.
“I should enjoy all parts of motherhood.”
Dread doing art with your kids? Hate giving baths? Find yourself debating whether the outing to the indoor playground was worth it given the meltdown that happened afterwards? If you answered “yes” to any of these, I’d argue you are pretty normal. We might have an idealized notion we would enjoy all those things as well as every aspect of motherhood, but this is rarely true for most moms. We tend to equate how much we enjoy motherhood to how much we love our kids-let’s agree these are two separate things. What would happen if we focused more of our energy on what we enjoy doing with our kids, and allowed we might delegate doing artwork to our partner or an aunt? Let’s remind ourselves others can meet our kids’ needs too.
What is “Matrescence”?
“Matrescence” is a term that was coined in the 1970s and describes the transition into motherhood-comparable to how we think about transitions into other developmental stages like adolescence. I first heard this term on a podcast about motherhood, a few years after having my first child. I immediately felt validated about my own struggles with the transition to motherhood, as this term spoke to how significant the change is. Many moms unintentionally minimize their own experience, or downplay what a significant change parenthood is to every aspect of their being. I’ve seen moms wonder if they are experiencing postpartum depression or anxiety, though they don’t actually meet the diagnosing criteria. Having another way to describe what they are feeling is helpful, and normalizes the transition to motherhood can feel really uncomfortable and scary.
Becoming a mom not only adds another identity, but is also changes or influences our other pre-existing identities. You won’t ever be the same person you were before-which can feel very unsettling. For example, if you have a job in addition to your job as parent, you return to work after a parental leave and you now assess your work from a different perspective. As a therapist, I had a newfound perspective and compassion for the clients I worked with that were also parenting. You will also relate differently to your partner and friends; this can certainly provide a new richness to those relationships, but it can also create a distance in these relationships as well.
It will take time, perhaps years, to integrate your identities and find a new normal after you become a mom. It may be an ever-evolving process that doesn’t have an end-but there are ways to tolerate the change, feel confident in yourself and focus on the parts of the experience that have meaning for you.